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i will always remember you

Evangeline Caballero is on the far left side of the picture….

Jing is what i used to call her…. I met her last summer of 2003…. It was during our interview at Julian Felipe Elementary School…. I can still vividly recall the first time I saw her…. She was late and she was in a hurry to prepare for a teaching demonstration for the panel interview…. we were just applicants back then… She did good during the teaching demo and she did great during the interview…. She was among the few applicants who spoke fluent English….. We did not immediately become friends…. It was only during our assignment as substitute teacher at Ladislao Diwa that we became really good friends…. We wanted to make a good impression so we came to school very early, around 5:40 am…. And she even managed to come ahead of me…. To think that, she’s coming from Las Piñas pa and I just live one block away from school….

Jing was the sub teacher for Mrs. Lopez and I was the sub teacher for Mrs. Olivan…. We used to eat lunch together… Being a sub teacher we did not receive our salary on time… So we did not really have money back then…. Can you guess kung saan kami kumakain???? We used to eat sa mga carinderia along Ronquillo…. Kasabay namin kumain ang mga jeepney driver….. I forgot to mention this during my eulogy for jing sa wake nya…. We have this promise to each other na kakain kami sa Malens to celebrate ang pagka-permanent namin as public teacher….. Sad to say, this will never materialize…..

Jing passed away already….. She cave in to breast cancer…..

Jing thank you for everything…. you are a good friend not just to me but also for a lot of people….. you are a good teacher….. and i know you are the best mom for ate izza and ate vianca…..

Please be an angel to us, now that you are in heaven na… we will surely miss you…. and we will never forget someone like you…….

gween, micha….. mga dating kasama sa grade II pm…. i don’t know why but recently, nagkakaroon kami ng friction….. mga petty issues….. am versus pm… although wala naman kaming inclination na makipag-compete…. masyado lang kasi silang matuusin sa lahat ng mga bagay…. thankful lang ako na im learning to voice out how i feel….

DEATH…….

this seems to be a topic na gusto kong i-avoid pero madalas ko ng iniisip….

especially when im sick…..

and dami kong concern, and dami kong questions….

i know dapat i-welcome di ba? (as a Catholic dapat ganon coz it will be the time to meet the Creator) but i cant help it… super scared me…..

sabi sa purpose driven life, life on earth is all bout character development…..

life is supposed to be hard, nothing is easy, every moment is a lesson na dapat may matutunan….

may cousin si Pam na nag-passed away na…. but before she died naikwento pa nya yung near death experience nya….

weirdo ba me? morbid masyado ang topic ko?

but lately, im slowly learning the truth…..

i feel lonely most of the time…. but now i know na definitely im not alone. that there is a good God watching over me….

i always feel discontentment. pero as they say life is beautiful. that if u only take a good look at it, life is filled with little blessings na most of the time we take for granted…. if only di sumasabay ang tao sa bandwagon ng mga uso na dictated by the society…..

when i read five people u meet in heaven by mitch albom, lahat ng tao na nakilala natin, kilala na natin, at makikilala pa lang natin ay may role na gagampanan sa buhay natin…. a lot of them may seem insignificant to us….. pero yun pala, we are all interconnected to one another…..

i’ll end this with a line from the Bible … “i am with you always”

this line has given me so much…. life maybe harsh and cruel….. i may think na im all alone….. but now i have peace, inner strength and comfort na God will be there for all of us who trust in Him…..

hmmmm….. periodic exam…. checking of papers, computing grades…. and parents and teacher’s conference…..  hopefully everything will go well….

tick tock, tick tock
my gosh…. another school year is closely coming….
summer is about to end with a blink of an eye….
ready or not????
working days are here already….
in two weeks time…..
brigada eskwela na….and on june 9th….
daily preparations of lesson plan…..
visual aids, nutritional status, form 1, class reading profile…..
boy oh boy!!!!!
here the workload comes……

teaching is the noblest profession……

“Then the old man says, When you want something, all the universe conspire to help you achieve what you want.” Coelho

“Intelligence plus character, makes up the real education.” Martin Luther King Jr.

I’ll Look After You by THE FRAY

You are so beautiful to me (repeat)

Its Not Over

Your takin away everything
And I can’t do without.

I try to see the good in life.
The good things in life are hard to find.
We’re blowin away, blownin away
Can we make this something good?

Well I’ll try to do to it right this time around
It’s not over,
Try to do it right this time around
It’s not over
But a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killin me
But your the only one
It’s not over.

I’ve taken all I can take
And I cannot wait
We’re wastin too much time
Bein strong, holdin on
Can’t let it bring us down

My life with you means everything
So I won’t give up that easily

Blowin away blowin away
Can make this something good?
Cause it’s all misunderstood?

Well I’ll try to do to it right this time around
It’s not over,
Try to do it right this time around
It’s not over
But a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killin me
But your the only one
It’s not over.

You can’t let this get away
Let it out, let it out
Don’t get caught up in yourself
Let it out.

Let’s start over
Well try to do to it right this time around
Its not over
But a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killin me
But your the only one
It’s not over.

Lets start over
Its not over
This love is killin me
But your the only one
It’s not over